Alone 14

depression

In a world with a population of over 7 billion, do you ever feel like you’re alone and up against it on your own? From time to time, I feel like I’m literally the only person in the world and It’s such a lonely and sad, dark place. Somedays I feel frayed, like I’m going to fall apart at the seams and other days, I just don’t want to be around people whatsoever. People can be cruel, they can be mean but people can be the most hurtful, often when they aren’t even trying (hey, I’m guilty of it from time to time, too).

I’m just so tired of trying to be a good human being that is accountable for their actions. Seriously, what the hell did I ever do? I try my best but it never seems enough.

I have battled depression and anxiety for a long time but I’ve had a good grip on it this year thus far. But lately… lately I just want to sob and sleep and wake up to a new, better day.  I know a lot has to do with perspective and being positive, but believe me, I try.  Just sometimes…sometimes there are shitty days that you just cannot shake and today is one of them.