Alone 14

depression

In a world with a population of over 7 billion, do you ever feel like you’re alone and up against it on your own? From time to time, I feel like I’m literally the only person in the world and It’s such a lonely and sad, dark place. Somedays I feel frayed, like I’m going to fall apart at the seams and other days, I just don’t want to be around people whatsoever. People can be cruel, they can be mean but people can be the most hurtful, often when they aren’t even trying (hey, I’m guilty of it from time to time, too).

I’m just so tired of trying to be a good human being that is accountable for their actions. Seriously, what the hell did I ever do? I try my best but it never seems enough.

I have battled depression and anxiety for a long time but I’ve had a good grip on it this year thus far. But lately… lately I just want to sob and sleep and wake up to a new, better day.  I know a lot has to do with perspective and being positive, but believe me, I try.  Just sometimes…sometimes there are shitty days that you just cannot shake and today is one of them.

  • Oh, my sweet friend. I understand. Believe me. I’ve learned that there are some days when it’s better to just hang out in bed, and wait for the storm to pass. It always does, sometimes it’s just not on our timetable. I’m sending you so much love and hugs and am always here whenever you need, k??

    Xoxo

  • I know these feelings too well my love. I think it’s ok to step back and hide a little bit and just take care of yourself. Hugs and love your way, take one day, one step, one breath at a time. <3 xoxo

  • I hear you Lindsay. I’ve been battling with that loneliness for a little bit now…it was worse a few months ago when I was in a relationship and still felt lonely. It’s the worst feeling and I’m sorry you’re going through it. It does feel like a vast emptiness and nothingness, doesn’t it? Please feel free to reach out and connect even though it’s the online world. Happy to lend an ear. Hugs!

  • I’ve never suffered from depression so I never know the right thing to say and I don’t want to say the wrong thing so… I’m here for you. That’s all.

  • I’m so sorry you are feeling like this. I wish I knew the perfect thing to say.
    Please know that self-care is essential. Take a step back and do something just for you. You know how often we save all our patience for others? Give yourself some now. Take it day by day (and as a friend just said to me) sometimes you need to take it one moment at a time.
    Sending hugs.

  • Mary Kalpos

    Just take it one hour at a time Lindsey. That’s all you need to do. One baby step at a time. Give your fur babies a hug look over to your wonderful husband and he will help you too. One moment, one hour. I personally find that music is a powerful help for me when I am in a bad way. Try watching Amadeus and then listen to Mozart. You cannot help but laugh at his shenanigans. Hugs to you sweet Lindsay!

  • Nikki Frank-Hamilton

    Life does get overwhelming at times, doesn’t it? I don’t know what to say, but I tell my kids to try to recenter themselves. Find small things that make you smile, or that lessen the weight of the world. Depression and anxiety are a b*tch and I’m so sorry that they are taking residence in your mind right now. When I’m at my lowest I have to take time to have a lay down, find a favorite television show and binge watch until I can involve myself in the characters lives deeply enough that thoughts of my own are buried. Then I can begin to function and reset my mind. I don’t know if this will work for you, different things reach different people. Pets help, a lot. I know you know that. They are pure joy. Know that I am sending you big hugs and love. I hope that this will pass soon so that you can enjoy life. <3

  • Thanks so much a sweetie. Some days it’s all to much to adult and have responsibilities. xoxo

  • You’re absolutely right and I retreat back. Thankfully I’m feeling more level headed and collected. <3 thanks sweetie. xoxo

  • It’s such a sad and deep emptiness that’s hard to put into words, isn’t it? That void, that nothingness is palpable.
    xoxo thanks so much sweetie, I appreciate it.

  • Thanks sweetie. That’s more than enough. I appreciate your friendship. <3

  • Thers never a right thing to say, that’s the shitty thing. LOL!
    Thanks so much sweetie. One day at a time … xox

  • My pups help immensely, I fell asleep many nights last week with one or both in my arms. It was lovely and so soothing.
    Just taking things one day at a time and deeeeeeep breaths… Thanks so much sweetie. xoxox

  • That’s it, overwhelming, and sometimes I feel like I’m suffocating and that feeling inside is just wretched. Thankfully the lows are few and far between these days, but man when they are… jeez.
    Thanks so much sweetie. xoxoxo