Alone 14

In a world with a population of over 7 billion, do you ever feel like you’re alone and up against it on your own? From time to time, I feel like I’m literally the only person in the world and It’s such a lonely and sad, dark place. Somedays I feel frayed, like I’m going to fall apart at the seams and other days, I just don’t want to be around people whatsoever. People can be cruel, they can be mean but people can be the most hurtful, often when they aren’t even trying (hey, I’m guilty of it from […]


Depression and Anxiety

Depression and the Daily Fight 10

Having depression and anxiety is exhausting. Not only do I deal with how and what I’m feeling, I’m painfully aware that it must be so difficult to be on the other side of it all. Friends and family try desperately to understand, but they don’t. And bless them for any lengths they go to try and make things easier/better on the depressed individual…. I have been with my husband for nearly 15 years and for him to (presumably) constantly walk around on egg shells, not knowing if I’m going to burst into tears or snap, it has got to weigh […]

Speak Up for Silence, Liebster & Other Shizz 4

Today, I’m featured on Christine’s Blog, The So-Called Homemaker  for the Speak Up For Silence series that she is hosting with Cassie over at Sage The Blog. If you’re not familiar with the series, click here to read what it’s all about. I wrote a bit about what it’s like living with bouts of depression my entire life. So without getting too wordy or rambling on and on, if you want to read what I wrote, click here. Meaghan from The Lone Star Blogger graciously nominated me for the Liebster Award. Thank you so much my friend, I sincerely appreciate the thought. […]

Speak Up For Silence

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Never Being Good Enough 37

It can’t be easy being with someone like me…  Sometimes I am really terrible to myself and relentlessly compare myself to other people, no matter how many times I read or hear about how good enough or lovable I am.  For as long as I can remember, I’ve always believed and felt that I’ve never good enough.  I don’t know when, how or why, but sometime years ago, I brainwashed myself into being this negative, self-deprecating person because in a sick way, it was familiar and comforting.  I also knew no other way of living. I set this really unattainable, […]

Monday – The abyss that I’m in.

I had a brutal weekend and this week doesn’t look any better.  I’m in deep denial that I’m unwell and I need to take care of myself before I lose everything that means the world to me.  Before I lose my self.  I feel like I’m barely holding.  I’m falling into dirty habits that I used to once do.. It’s bad.  I don’t even feel like writing about it because I don’t know who reads this page, if I know you or not and I’m deeply disappointed in myself, ashamed, sad, angry, frustrated, embarrassed and depressed beyond belief.  Crying happens literally […]

What started off as a nice weekend ended in disaster.. Many, many hurtful things have been thrown out there, many of them which can’t be taken back or forgotten.  I don’t know which was is up or down right now but I’m barely treading above water.. I don’t know how we ever got to this place..We both have now said that getting married was probably the stupidest idea… He wanted to make my mom happy with marrying her only child.  For us, it’s only been down hill since then.  So many people have said that while I’ve had so many […]